Eileen looks at the dementia leaflet |
"Auntie Marian didn't know what day it was" |
"I had a scan last week" |
"You must have misunderstood" |
"Frontal Lobe Dementia!" |
"You can't go out after telling me something like that!" |
“It’s not the end of the world – there are lots of treatments these days,” she says, but he replies that she does not know the first thing about dementia,
and urges her not to talk nonsense just to make him feel better. “Well, talk to me then,” she says, “Tell me what the doctor said.”
"Don't talk nonsense just to make me feel better" |
"He didn't say much – hospitals are busy places" |
"I walked out – I just wanted to come home to you" |
"So you don't have a clue about it" |
He is tapping on the table |
"I don't need an expert to tell me I'm going to have memory loss" |
"We don't want to fill our heads with Internet nonsense!" |
She is however undeterred, arguing that she has to do something,
but he closes the laptop, warning that she will frighten her to death while she is doing it.
“It’s all right to be frightened – I’m frightened too,” she assures him,
“But we’ll look at a decent website, not some nonsense written by gremlins.”
"You'll only frighten me to death!" |
"It's all right to be frightened, Jim" |
"No, Eileen – trolls, not gremlins!" |
“Trolls,” he corrects her, laughing, “Trolls, not gremlins!”
They reopen the laptop.
The laptop is reopened |
Now darkness has fallen over Penrhewl |
"Over-eating of sweet foods" |
“Something about proteins that form clumps on the brain,” he continues,
and Eileen thinks he could have an operation to remove them. “No, these boys aren’t going anywhere,” Jim groans, “And gradually, one at a time they kill the brain cells –
“and there’s nothing you can do about it.” He closes the laptop.
"You could have an operation" |
"And there's nothing you can do about it!" |
"I should have been there with you" |
"You're jealous that Brenda got a trip to the hospital" |
"Brenda thought I had a tumour" |
"But you turned to her!" |
"Brenda thought she recognised the symptoms" |
"It must be a relief, finding it's not a tumour" |
“You would think so, wouldn’t you?” Jim exclaims,
“Brenda insisted that I go to hospital. If it wasn’t for her, I would . . .” Eileen appreciates that Brenda has been a big support, and is at least glad that Jim was not on his own.
"Well, I'm glad you weren't on your own" |
"But going through something like that . . ." |
". . . I'm your wife, Jim!' |
He explains that is exactly why he did not want her there;
“If I’d told you, it would have opened the door to it – invited this illness into our home – to sit at the table with us – to lie between us in bed. I wanted to keep it out of the house for as long as possible. That’s why I slept in the shed after getting back – it sounds ridiculous now, doesn’t it?”
"It would be like inviting this illness into our home" |
"I thought you'd had enough of me" |
"I'd never have an affair, Eileen" |
"A big, medium-rare steak – just the way I like it" |
"I'm not completely useless – not yet, anyway!" |
"This bloke has started an art group . . ." |
". . . and there are choirs, too" |
"What does it say just there? 24-hour care!" |
"Any cowboy could have written that, Jim" |
"I thought Huwi was my second chance" |
"It could be years, if you look after yourself" |
"Years of living like an empty shell" |
"My memory's not right now – even you can see that" |
"What if I can't remember anything at all?" |
"We can either let it strangle us . . ." |
". . . or make the best of what we have" |
"They're not taking my licence from me!" |
"You may as well book me a one-way ticket to Switzerland!" |
"We both need you, Jim" |
"You'd be better off without me!" |
"It will be terrible and disgusting!" |
"Every time I wet the bed!" |
"Let's go to the bathroom for a trial run, shall we?" |
"I want you to put me in a home!" |
"That's never going to happen, Jim!" |
"Huwi will see me as a monster!" |
"Sioned and Eifion will help us" |
"We can't leave the tree like that!" |
Eileen asks if Eifion knows about his condition;
“Why would I tell him?” he demands,
but she says if they are going to depend on him more, he deserves to know why. Jim does not want to tell anyone, reasoning that he will not be able to hide it before long; “Please, just let me be Jim while I still can,” he begs. He picks up some tinsel to put on the tree.
"Why would I tell Eifion?" |
"He deserves to know what he are relying on him" |
Eileen brings Cae Glas organic Plum wine as refreshment . . . |
. . . and switches on the lights |
"One of the symptoms – not being able to make decisions" |
"Oh, right – if I break wind, it's a symptom!" |
"Huwi had fun watching us pick these plums" |
"It was a perfect autumn day . . ." |
". . . before things started to turn rotten!" |
"Courtney made this when she was three or four" |
"How would you like a Christmas tree stuffed up your . . ?" |
"Jim! Less of that!" |
She places the angel on the Christmas tree |
"I might forget she's dead – forget the pain!" |
"You must be cursed – everyone dies!" |
"Hey boys, don't go anywhere near Eileen!" |
Eileen does not appreciate this black humour |
"My head's all over the place – it's all too much for me!" |
"It's as if Huwi knows there's somethiomng wrong" |
"I'm going out to check on the turkeys" |
Jim stares at the angel, with its memories . . . |
. . . then sits on the sofa |
Eileen lets out an agonising scream |
She looks through the farmhouse window . . . |
. . . to see Jim inside |
"They're eating like food's going out of fashion |
"Theuy don't know what's in front of them!" |
"Why don't we go to Tenby – tomorrow – for a few nights?" |
"Let's go for a walk by the sea" |
"Then come home and enjoy Christmas" |
"I didn't expect you to agree" |
"We have to make the most of every second" |
"We'd be snoring before lunch!" |
"Wallpaper paste tastes better!" |
"The best Christmas ever!" |
"I'll be there, holding your hand!" |